No Matter What

No matter what, my child, I will be.

“Will you be?,” I questioned the Lord,
“Will there be nothing that could separate us and break us apart?
I am still haunted by the echoes in my head.
I am still tearing down myself from all these thoughts.
I am being clouded by fearful imaginations,
That the day might come when I will fail you, Lord.
And that I might not stand in front of you,
That you would reject me.”

No matter what you fear, I will remain faithful.
No matter what you think, nothing can separate us.
No matter what happens, I will save you.

“Will you?” I questioned the Lord,
“Will you really? Some people say it’s difficult.
They say it’s hard to get to heaven.
That, If I am not persecuted, I will burn in the pits of hell.
At times, I think of you as a cloud of wrath,
Just waiting above until the time comes,
When you’ll strike with your iron fists of thunder
and send everyone helpless, desperate for life.
Your judgment scares me. I might not be saved.”

No matter what, believe me, I will rescue you.
No matter what they tell, I will never forsake you.
No matter what happens, I will love you forever.

“Won’t you?” I questioned the Lord,
“What if I fail? What if I sin against you?
What if I don’t make it through, and I won’t do
all that you command me to?
What if I don’t want to do anything at all?
I am not worthy at all.
I am not as good as them.
I could not preach you to my friends.
I am so tired, Lord. I am so unable.
Forgive me.”

No matter what you are, I will not hate you.
No matter how you fail, I will never be mad at you.
No matter what happens, I will keep you in my arms.

“Are you?” I questioned the Lord.
“Sometimes I couldn’t feel you.
I feel as if you’re leaving me. I don’t feel your embrace.
I cry because what I’m going through is so hard,
yet I don’t feel you. Would you do that?
Maybe it’s me. Yes, it is me…
Not reaching you enough. Not talking to you enough.
Not faithful or righteous enough in my actions.
Is that it, Lord? Please, tell me.”

No matter what you do, I will remain true.
No matter what you feel, I will be with you.
No matter what happens, I will pull you through.

“What about it?” I questioned the Lord,
“I am lazy. I make excuses to not know you.
I choose to sin instead of seeking you.
Sometimes my thoughts are filled with darkness,
Full of lust, of curses, of hate.
At times I hate you. And, at times I don’t believe you,
Will you still save me, then?
Will you still love me, then?
Will you still keep me in your arms, then?
Will you still pull me through, then?
I am tired of thinking like this, Lord.
I am tired of being like this,
I am tired of not looking, searching hard enough.
I doubt myself at times!
But, you are my only hope!”

… … 

“Lord, will you still love me?”

Then the Lord said to me,

My child, I will still love you, and will continue to love you.
I have forgiven all your sins on the cross.
I have demonstrated my love for you.
In me, you are no longer condemned.
I work even your mistakes into good.
In me, you are pardoned.
In me, you are healed.
I have redeemed you from the pit,
I have crowned you with compassion.
I have shown you what love is.
And I offer you rest from works.
I offer you peace.

Neither death, nor life,
Nor angels, nor principalities, Nor powers,
Nor things present, nor things to come,
Nor height, nor depth,
Nor any other creature,
shall separate my love from you.
No matter what happens, nothing can stop me from loving you.

Now, tell me, my child, do you still not believe that I truly love you so?
My love for you, I showed at the cross.
I ransomed you from the power of the grave.
Will you not believe that what I’ve done is finished?
Will you not understand that all you need to do is believe in me?
You need not labor, nor be heavily burdened,
For I have done everything for you.
Will you not find rest in me?

I cried, and nodded, as He boldly instilled upon me these words.

He loves me… no matter what.
Indeed, He does.
I may have a lot of questions,
a lot of doubts,
a lot of mistakes and failures,
but then…
All He asks me to do is rest..
To rest..in His finished work.
He is for me…no matter what.
And so, I will not let go of Him.
And so, I will not worry.
And so, I will not try to save myself.

God, You are my only Hope.

Scripture Reference:
I John 1:9, Romans 5:8, Romans 8:1, Romans 8:28, Psalm 103:1-5,
I John 3:16, Hebrews 4:10, Philippians 3:8, Isaiah 26:3, Romans 8:38-39,
Hosea 13:14, John 6:28-29, Matthew 11:28-30

Written entirely by tacticianjenro

This dialogue between the narrator and God has been in my mind for some time now. To be honest, I am so confused right now. These are all my questions to him, and I know a lot of you ask Him the same.

Yet He is the Truth – and the truth is, He loves us no matter what. We have to truly believe it.

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Question: Doesn’t Grace Make You Lazy?

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Anonymous asked:

Does Christianity encourage laziness? The whole concept of Grace you often speak about lets people off the hook too easily. The Bible says faith without works is dead and Jesus said all trees that bear no fruit will be chopped down and thrown into fire. The reason people are so lazy and under-motivated is because they are always told they're some special person while no one really is all that special.

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If grace is an ocean, we're ALL sinking.

It’s Hard to See Grace – A Rant

I just realized that, often times, it’s hard to see grace.

Especially if you keep messing up all the time, and people demand you actions, and shove the regrets you have and the mistakes you’ve got from your past right into your face. Often times, that how it is, right?

It’s hard to see grace, when often times…people LOOK at someone, and while they don’t, they actually really intend to throw stones at them for being in the ‘wrong’.

It’s hard to see grace, when what people call ‘love’ seem like too much pain, and discipline. While it can be healthy, maybe it just isn’t for me. I don’t know why I’ve got such a fragile heart, and I am admittedly a coward.

It’s hard to see grace, when we’ve often been conditioned to follow and obey, and not to think for ourselves. Our heart screams for rebellion and freedom, yet we’re tied up and feel so miserable and unworthy.

And when it’s hard to see grace…it’s hard to extend grace.

Why have we been conditioned this way? It’s these situations that make me feel unworthy – that’s because I see myself and see someone so weak, unconditioned, and ill-prepared in comparison to others If you knew me in person you will know what I mean. That is why I am just trying to cope up to what I’m lacking by..trying to extend grace to others, even in spite of second-guessing myself. Maybe I’m just running away.

All I know is though, those past failures and mistakes, and even when I keep repeating them and feel like shit about them – that’s not who I am anymore. But I just hope I can be better…

It’s hard to see grace in this world. That’s why we fix our eyes on Jesus..

Artwork: What Are The Answers?

art by tacticianjenro

Billions of people around the world…some they die and some are born. People everywhere…they smile, and they weep. And they ask. They see life beyond. They see what’s going to come eventually. They see ideals forsaken, and people ending up broken.

And in the end, I can say that the most sensible answer is love. To love in spite of the questions, and imperfections. To love….and to be loved. To rest in the unending grace of God. To have hope.

I don’t know what to do. Sometimes I don’t feel like I’m okay. I still feel like a caterpillar…a sapling…but with time I will grow. I won’t give up….my Daddy isn’t giving up on me, either.

Artwork: Your Home

“Your Home” – art by tacticianjenro

Borrower, human being, living thing

Life, little, beautiful as spring

Fragile, yet striving to make it through

I wonder if you would mind if I carry you?

Your weight and your struggles, I will make a way,

On my shoulder, for as long as you’d like, you can stay

I’ll be your friend and the answer to it all,

Just trust and hold on, I won’t let you fall.

- Jenro

A Question For My Blog Followers

July 2011.

Recently, I haven’t been pretty active with writing in this blog. I’ve started writing here at the year of 2011, talking about issues on life and faith that really matter to me. I’ve also written things that have helped or inspired some people out along the way. Over the last few months though, I have barely received any support and feedback, due to the lack of posts I’m sharing. That is why I am considering starting anew instead. However, my decision isn’t final yet.

December 2011.

 Maybe it’s just the lack of direction with the blog, or some sort of progress, that’s why I’m not really as inspired as I used to be from a year ago. Maybe I was losing sight of who I am in God, instead continuing to be frustrated and anxious over myself, in spite of knowing the truth.

I have a lot of ideas, still… stories I wish to be told, yet some part of me could not seem to express it because I’m still somehow not there yet.

March 2012.

June 2012.

December 2012.

February 2013.

But I’ve found that there is a lot of truth in what I am writing…it is still there, and I just need to keep believing in myself and the light that I have to offer, that is Christ… 

I will continue writing, and expressing my thoughts and ideas, but just for a moment, if you are reading this, What is your honest opinion about what I am writing?

What do you think, honestly? Because some feedback and direction is really much needed and appreciated right now…not just for me but I’m sure a lot of others could benefit from that, too.. Thank you.

Likes, Image, and Comparisons

In this age of social networking and this hype we have about getting likes and followers, I see how it stimulates our desire for popularity and attention. Because, doesn’t it feel good to receive a lot of likes, or a top comment on youtube? Or maybe having that goal or desire for a self-made blog, idea, or video to go viral..

It’s a beautiful success, or so it seems, for others to see how cool we are or what kind of impact we can make to a lot of people. In our idleness, we flaunt what’s best in us, of course weighing if people would like it or not, and be…admired.

Being admired gives most of us a sense of value or success. Finally, we could be proud of ourselves. We aren’t the newbies and dreamers we once were. Because we’re living in reality now. Once, we were holding on to nothing. Now we have “proof” to say that we have it.

But.. maybe these days.. the goal for popularity and a good image have been too emphasized on. Maybe.. it has become such a valuable factor in having one’s dreams fulfilled, or success being reached.

But when we strip ourselves of these things…all these goals we have reached, all these talents we have been given, all of the fans who fervently support us, all that good actions we have committed… Who are we? Does what we do define who we are?

Is it about toiling and giving our all towards life to uphold ourselves?

One thing’s for sure, you don’t have to aim for all of these things. You don’t have to surround yourself with followers, or say something others would like, to give you a sense of worth.

Because in Christ you have all of these. He is your success. The world says you have to prove yourself to be accepted. You have to be cool and admirable, and be better. But…that’s just NOT the case for Christianity. God loves you as you are. Just be you, and remember how much He loves you. This is how we could wholly love others – knowing that God loves us not because of what we do, but because that’s who He is.

“All the lonely people; Where do they all come from?"

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In 1966 a song “Eleanor Rigby” was recorded by Paul McCartney of The Beatles. The song gave the band a shift to how people viewed them as just a young  rockers to be taking more serious in their music. The song hit a reality with the lines “All the lonely people; Where do they all come from?; All the lonely people; Where do they all belong?”

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Keep Calm, Truth Remains.

I get so anxious about myself so easily and that’s hindered me a lot of times, and I often fight those by listening to music. The above ones listed are ones I encourage you to listen to. I am sure you will be blessed. God loves you…let go…He’s holding you.

We Grow…Still

“We Grow…As A New Dawn” by tacticianjenro

“We Grow…Give It Time” by tacticianjenro

Each day, I choose to think that I become a better person.. There is no guilt. There is nothing to be ashamed of. The past is gone, and is now made into something glorious.

And in the future, a promise is waiting. It’s an amazing promise, one filled with much hope. At the same time, we may feel inadequate and fearful, but it’s far more than being about us.

And I will wait..thankful for what I am, who I am, and what I have.

What I See Now – Josh Wilson

“Somehow, I wish you could see what I see now. I see a perfect plan…I see God’s guiding hand… I see a better man. You’ll be a better man.”