comic by tacticianjenro
More like a question rather a story, this comic shows some of the thoughts I’ve had about what it takes to have a well-lived life and about what it means to worry. The Bible tells us not to worry and not to fear, but at the same time there are some places in it where we can feel this way instead.
Emotions, opinions, can get quite rough and they make you feel like you’re miles behind. People often compare life to a race, or a competition, but, in spite of how they insist it is, I’d rather “lose” than “win”.
The answer to this, probably, is found in my previous comic, “One I Need“.
comic by tacticianjenro
He says we are loved. We are secured. We are forgiven. This life is scary but He promises to keep us safe, and to provide for what we need. And there are no limits to what He can make possible. He has such an amazing promise..
My days in school had a lot of mixed up memories. Now that I’m older, looking back, there were things I could have changed. It would have been great if I made the most out of the time as a teenager. But like most kids – I was often just going along and letting things be..
The prevailing memory I’ve had back then was how I was caring so much about what others thought about me and ending up falling short. Somehow I grew up adapting that way of thinking where people’s eyes, scores and judgments needed to be regarded a lot. That seed made much anxiety bloom and I was a wreck on the inside. I was awkward and often thought I was disregarded. That people could stand on their own and I couldn’t.
art by tacticianjenro
Billions of people around the world…some they die and some are born. People everywhere…they smile, and they weep. And they ask. They see life beyond. They see what’s going to come eventually. They see ideals forsaken, and people ending up broken.
And in the end, I can say that the most sensible answer is love. To love in spite of the questions, and imperfections. To love….and to be loved. To rest in the unending grace of God. To have hope.
I don’t know what to do. Sometimes I don’t feel like I’m okay. I still feel like a caterpillar…a sapling…but with time I will grow. I won’t give up….my Daddy isn’t giving up on me, either.
In this age of social networking and this hype we have about getting likes and followers, I see how it stimulates our desire for popularity and attention. Because, doesn’t it feel good to receive a lot of likes, or a top comment on youtube? Or maybe having that goal or desire for a self-made blog, idea, or video to go viral..
It’s a beautiful success, or so it seems, for others to see how cool we are or what kind of impact we can make to a lot of people. In our idleness, we flaunt what’s best in us, of course weighing if people would like it or not, and be…admired.
Being admired gives most of us a sense of value or success. Finally, we could be proud of ourselves. We aren’t the newbies and dreamers we once were. Because we’re living in reality now. Once, we were holding on to nothing. Now we have “proof” to say that we have it.
There was this time in my life when I used to wake up early in the morning and watch Playhouse Disney when I was a kid. That was around…1999-2002. Shows like Bear in the Big Blue House, Rolie Polie Olie, and PB&J Otter got me open to the English language even in my young age. That’s one of the reasons why I’ve really embraced this language a lot, even as a Filipino.
“Any fears, doubts, pride, guilt–all the things that plague us–sin, that so easily entangle us, always, if you trace it back you can find a line that goes back to disbelief that God loves you.”
Mike of Tenth Avenue North pretty much sums it up here in this video journal.
“We love – not to gain the love of God – but because He already, and does, love us.”
I believe that a lot of us still make a misconception out of this…thinking, and laying out indirectly, that to gain God’s favor we ought to do…to be. But that’s not the case, and that’s not the Gospel! God loves us and we don’t need to do anything to make Him love us. He loves us unconditionally.
And not making this clear for most Christians is probably the reason why most of us are moving away from Him. God is Love and all He does, He does out of love for you.
More than Words
You are Loved